artificial heart
Wednesday, February 5, 2003
Although the college campus is large in scale and in numbers and how there are constantly unfamiliar faces walking by you everyday, you still see people from the past, from last semester and also someone that catches your eye.

I've seen an individual from time to time in school, a person that interests me and gives me great curiousity because of her weird vibe. Ever had that?
All I know at the moment is that she's in ROTC and honestly I don't know how that program works. But yeah, this student... obviously she is attractive and she gives me this weird feeling, a pull and some sort of magnetism that makes me observe her, and even ... search for her.
Everyone has encountered individuals from afar and you give them an evaluation based on what they're doing and you come up with a conclusion that they're either outgoing, timid, shy, etc. But this lady, aside from the fact that I haven't had interaction - whether or not I will - gave me no instinct or second sense of what kind of person she is, which made me more curious because of this mysterious quality.
Since it is only the beginning of my adult life, there's a chance running into each other in the years ahead - tacky, yes but hell, it's me. Even so, I have a better instinct and gut feeling that she'll be in the Non-attainment level in which she's there but can never be really present.
I've trust my instincts and gut feelings for years - it served me well for the times I've had to decide in anything. that's what they're functioned to do anyway.

Other than this sad and probable fate, the weird vibe that she has taken hold on me was interesting. I won't say DREAM or even IMAGINE, all I can say or do is to act normal, go on by my regular self and be by my lonesome for a couple more years. This is already a hormonal urged entry so I'll cut down on the lady talk.
Initiative or any form of courage rarely gives me true motivation to step up and say hello. Would it be weird if I agree a bit on fate and running things based on what you do at the moment? A semi decision of being in a tapestry of events while at the same time weaving that predestined way of life.

To wait? I've been doing it for ages.
Miscellaneous notes: the modest fool I call honesty, intimidate the motivated, L - Ignore and R - Answer, don't call.